I didn’t ask you to love me

I didn’t ask for pick up lines

And happy memories

I didn’t ask you to be there

When I needed an escape

I didn’t ask for a best friend

To fit into the jigsaw puzzle of my life

Like you were always meant to be there

I didn’t ask for a person

To hug me close as the night grew cold

You weren’t supposed to waltz into my life

Acting like you always fit here

Rosy cheeks and dark eyes

That part of me loves

And the other part refuses to give into

Because I didn’t ask you to love me

I didn’t ask for a hand to hold

I didn’t ask for you to never let go

You showed up and made me better

I didn’t ask for that

I asked for a therapist

Not a significant other

I asked for an escape

Not a devotion

You weren’t supposed to laugh

no smiles and no compliments

You weren’t supposed to be

Who I needed

In my terrible situation

You were supposed to be a stranger

Not a undeniable love interest

My story was supposed to end

Like all stories do

I am a cat with nine lives

But I’ve used up all 20

I didn’t ask for a reason to live

I didn’t ask for someone

To pull my wrist away from the razor

I didn’t ask for you to love me

So why do you?

Why do you take the meticulous time

To figure out how to solve me

Learning how to solve a Rubik’s cube

Just so you could say

I love you

I didn’t ask for your help

So why even offer it?

Giving me your hands

Calloused and warm

Holding my broken heart and simply

Giving me yours

I didn’t ask for the moon

I didn’t ask for the stars

I didn’t ask to be yours

So how did I end up

Being the one in your arms?

Your simple reply

Was that you loved me

That I was the best thing

That stumbled into your life

You simply said

I love you

And that fixed the problem

Or some of it

Because you as a whole

seemed to make me better

And I blame you for that

Giving me happy memories

And the bestest of dreams

I didn’t ask you to love me

And yet you did

You told me

“That’s just how it works”

But for some reason

That didn’t sit right with me

My clock work brain couldn’t grasp

That balloon of an idea

You made it sound so easy

A simple thought that always

Crossed your mind

That love was easy

That love was not as complicated

As I thought it was

That love was not a bear trap

Not waiting to capture you

But love was open arms

Waiting to embrace you

You broke the barrier

Shattered my house of glass

Threw rocks at my mind

And invaded the territory

That was hidden behind

A unlocked door

Designed to be impossible to enter

You invaded my heart

But I don’t think it was an invasion

Because I let you in

I didn’t ask for anything

But you gave me the world

I didn’t ask you to love me

“I know. But I love you..”

That was your reply.