I want to tell everyone the truth about me,
How good my life has never been,
How bad my true self is,
How truly happy I’ve never been,
I know I can’t,
I have to continue to wear this mask,
I can never take it off,
Not even for my own family,
I need to hide my true colors,
Others just aren’t ready to hear,
The gruesome truths of my past and present,
The abuse,
The hurt,
The feeling of internal and external pain all at once,
Im itching to get this mask off,
I no matter how hard I try it always comes back,
Flying towards me as if it was going a hundred miles and hour,
And landing on the hardened,
Thick skin,
Of what I once called my true self,
No one but I knows who I am,
The lies I tell myself,
They take away the truth of who I am,
Until there’s nothing left under the mask,
The mask has become one with me.