Today I decided to go to the new carnival that just came into town with my two friends, because they have been begging me to go ever since it came into town, they mostly wanna go for the Ferris wheel because for some odd reason it happens to be both of their favorite ride.

Arriving there we instantly go and get food. The place is terribly crowded, causing my nerves to sky rocket. I feel like I'm drowning, knowing my friends are talking but I can barely hear them. I'm pulled out of my head when one of my friends yank my hand to join them in the line of the Ferris wheel, the line is pretty long. We wait there for about 10 to 15 minutes until it's finally our turn to go on the ride. We sit in our little cart and close the gate waiting for the ride to take off. 

As the rides goes up, so do my nerves, but once I reach the top it's like everything freezes, I feel the wind on my face it just me and the cart on the ride, all I can see from this high up is the distant lights from the rest of the carnival on the ground, it feels like I can finally breathe, one of those moments that only come once in a lifetime, After so many disasters of life you finally see the beauty and let you body feel free,like living in a dream I never want to come out of. In this moment i'm not just a spec in the Universe waiting for my time to departure, I'm not just a nobody that has no use in this world, I'm a daughter, a friend, a sister, a classmate, I feel content, seeing the realness of life and it's beauty, I woke up this morning, ate breakfast, put on my shoes, hugged my best friends all the little things that I did today was an accomplishment leading me to where i'm meant to be, my destiny in life I'm no longer fighting for a life that I didn't ask for,I feel free. I know once I get off this ride I will get my heart broken again whether it's by family, friend, stranger whoever,but I realized that nothing about being broken says that you are useless, pain is inevitable, life is pain but suffering over that pain is an option and im choosing not to anymore.

As the ride comes to an end finally reaching the bottom I realize that I no longer need to know my purpose in life for the long run, No one ever truly knows the answer to that, but I know my purpose for this day today is to push through and keep fighting because yes life gets hard but I no longer look at it like it's a burden on my shoulders, the beauty of life is simple that it goes on. I want to love with my whole heart, find the missing half of my soul,My soulmate. Travel around the world, wake up everyday with the purpose to fight.